Well, it's been a week now. I haven't told this person that I love them in a week. But the problem is, I do. I would die for them. Not for the 2nd party, but for the first one. I'm still angry, but it's not as bad as it was. I've been praying that I will have peace and a forgiving heart. My pastor said that I need to just let it go and let God handle it. I'm trying, I really am. That's easier said than done. For all involved (except me), it would be best if I just acted like none of this ever happened. I just need to program myself to quit being selfish and put others ahead of me. But then, that's what got me in this mess to start with. I will never again do the things I have done in the past to help this person. That is one thing I CAN do even if I do make amends. I think it would be very rude of this person to ask me to do anything to help again, after this. Just pray that I will listen for God's voice to tell me what to do. I'm sure it won't be what I want to hear, but oh well... When He tells us to do something, we'd better do it. I think He's giving me some time to stew about it right now. He knows I need to get my anger out.
Tomorrow is Bucky's graduation!! I can't wait! I haven't seen any of the family in so long! I feel it is such an honor to be included in their circle of friends. I'm taking my camera so maybe I can get some good pictures. Til next time...Bye!
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About Me
- Vicki
- I am now an RN. I love taking pictures, especially of my grandchildren. I love taking care of people and wish there was more time to do it. Management puts so much paperwork and picky stuff on us we really don't have time to do the job we are destined to do.
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Vicki, I know you have a long road to go down to until you will be able to think about this situation and not be as angry as you are and say, This was a lesson learned.. BUT You will defintely get there..
I can't wait to see you tonight! SMILE! Hugs M-
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